This is something I’ve been wanting to discuss with you here for quite a long time, but I didn’t really have the words…now that I have a newborn baby in my life and my music time will be much much more restricted (and maybe creativity and efficiency will peak because of that) I am at a turn point and I think it’s time to open up myself even more.
To put it simply: I have a constant need of putting out songs with videos on my youtube channel, it’s like I need to show the world I am great at this. I call it anxiety, creative anxiety, because I have a constant need to create, to learn and then show everyone.
The point here is that quite often I am not playing for myself but just to show others how good I am…that’s why I am getting closer to modular synthesis and meditation…but…I will have to publish at least a youtube video every month until I am cured.
Does anyone know what I am talking about? Do you feel self-pressured to create and share your talent with the rest of the world? Is this causing you stress?
I am very interested in knowing if you ever felt like this and how did you manage.
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