I completely agree. I don’t mean to say that the work I’ve done before (that I feel falls short on honesty - which, I concede, is an incredibly problematic term) is bad or inferior in any way. I would hope to some extent that it is inferior, as I imagine all creators hope that their best work is still ahead of them, but the honesty or lack thereof has no bearing on that. To re-frame your suggestion slightly, I think most appropriate to me in this context is perhaps the question “what do I want to express?”
Another way of looking at it is akin to presenting the carefully curated social media version of my musical output rather than the length and breadth of it, not because the various different elements aren’t important to me, but because I imagine that they may be problematic to some imagined audience. “I won’t put this and that together because they’re too dissimilar. I’ll wait until I have enough this and enough that to make an entire release of this and an entire release of that”
Thanks to having sampled him for a track several years ago, I can’t read that without Alan Watts continuing “and who are you?”
It’s a little bit of an aside but through the course of my thesis I’ve found myself distracted by contemplation of the manifold nature of the word “stream” and the way it relates to the consumption of music. The notion of never being able to step into the same stream twice sticks in my head and I can’t help but think of those instances when you recommend music to friend and have an instant twinge of jealousy, knowing that they are about to experience it for the first time. Regardless of how many times we may hear it (stream it) it always a different stream and we are always a different us.
It makes me also wonder whether the imagined audience idea isn’t also negated by the imagined idea of reception. In my mind, I create releases that I intend to be listened to in a single sitting, start to finish, but logic suggests that this is increasingly unlikely to be the case and in fact listeners will more commonly step into (and out of) the stream instead