Disquiet Junto Project 0350: Selected Insomniac Works


#21

As with all of my content, this entire process was documented in a live stream at www.twitch.tv/zeromeaning

A sample was taken from ‘Cold War’ by Zero Meaning, then stretched, reverbed, and layered to form the backbone for this track.

Synth: Albino2, ImpOSCar
Additional sounds: Radio transmissions, in-between stations.
Vocals: Performed live in one take by Zero Meaning.

L

this is how it is
lonely and aging in a crumbling room
nowhere to stretch, nowhere to grow
i can't be myself
might as well be dead
just smile and tell them it's fine, but it's not
happiness is a blank page
i don't know how i continue
every day is the same fucking thing
just talking to myself, talking into empty space
with no one listening, no one caring
sometimes someone passes by and throws a dime, sometimes a dollar
and they're gone. it's just crumbs, not enough to sustain
the days get longer, the mountains grow steeper,
and i care less and less
i wish i were dead
it'd be better to fade away than be noticed
everything here, you, the mirror, me
they're all projections
you're all too busy with your fucking rat race
and capitalist bullshit
slaving away for someone who earns more than you do
just so you can have fifteen minutes with your child
when you get home after a two hour commute
what are you trying to achieve?
who are you pretending to be?
what are you trying to forget?
it's all a dream
i know i've totally lost the plot
but there never was a story in the first place
our narrative came to an end years ago
here we are, stagnating in sufferance

R

do you think you can remember?
the times we had, the places we went to
the laughter, the joy?
we've become so distant
it's so cold all the time
my opinion was never valid
i'm sorry if i offended you
i rejected myself years ago
but it's okay
i'm okay with just existing
none of this matters anyway
we're all going to die some day
i can't wait to be forgotten
always evading others and the truth
most people want success
but success is something i'm not used to
we keep ourselves happy by deceiving ourselves
fill in the spaces with tv and nonsense
could you please hold my hand like you used to?
i held on to hope but you turned me away
wished for years to have you back
but you left that day
and never returned
might as well have died
now my heart has turned cold towards you
my words are alkaline
i feel like a wasp
every day is the same fucking thing
never wanted to be this way
but i lied to myself
i lied until i saw things how they were
this is how it is

#22

A collaborative ambient track with itssowindy…with music I´d like to listen to late in the night.


#23

This is ridiculous - and I don’t make that up: I woke up at 4am today and couldn’t sleep anymore. Went to my computer to find the Disquiet Junto assignment about making „Insomniac Works“. Jeez.

Thankfully, I do have some audio sleeping pills that I listen to when working, minutes before sleeping or getting back to sleep. I quite enjoy this lucid dream state when you know that you’ll still be able to listen but you are not conscious enough to steer your train of thought.

Anyhow, here’s my take for „music for 4am (that isn’t techno)“.


#24

Here’s my take. A repetitive pianomelody over some samples of waves from Freesound. There’s also some marimba, glass bells and a moog bass patch (Arturia) that I play as a high lead. Everything is played in C major scale on a push2.

The BPM of the track is automated to go slower and slower, to be more and more relaxing.


#25

Hope everyone is well,

Reliqua (disquiet0350)
Not to get all emotional and sentimental, but this prompt hits home for me. I’ve had a few run ins with the wide-eyed beast and the music of past Juntos has helped immensely in overcoming some of its tricks. The disquiet 0240- Emerging from a Drone in particular has at least a dozen tracks, that if played on vinyl would have been worn through from needle time. I’m not sure how many participants I’ve chatted with, but consider this another thank you to everyone here. I really can’t say how much this place, it’s people and their music have helped me through some dark times and sleepless nights.

I can only hope my little bits might do the same.

This is a simple piece based on a soon lost Alchemy patch, with live manipulation of the performance pads for a small amount of interest. I tried to start with a more interesting section and then flow into a longer repeating loop. A few minimal percussive elements are introduced, but mostly the high hat came through. This pattern is slowed slightly over time while concurrently the Alchemy patch is increasingly sent to a tape delay. Then underneath two Micrologue drone patches rise to take over for the ending. Nothing fancy just some E2, E3, and a bit of white noise to sooth and follow the Alchemy’s note beginnings.
Overall, some eq helped tame the occasional squawks and stereo delay and a small reverb add some space.
The title is Latin for rest.
Hope you enjoy and it helps in some way :slight_smile:


#26


Suss Müsik knows all about insomnia for the mentally fragile. We’ll spare you the details, other than to say this: when one is dedicated to the craft of “post-classical ambient minimalism for crepuscular airports,” exploring the nuance between dusk and dawn is something of an occupational necessity. It’s a tough job, but someone has to do it.

“I fellowed sleep who kissed me in the brain / Let fall the tear of time; the sleeper’s eye,” writes the poet Dylan Thomas. “There grows the hours’ ladder to the sun / Each rung a love or losing to the last.” These two couplets succinctly describe the duality of insomnia, which in Suss Müsik’s experience takes two forms.

The first form of insomnia is a woozy precipice between not quite being asleep or awake — not exactly alert, yet consciously aware that time is passing. The second form (usually following the first) is a whirlpool of cognitive dissonance: the body may be tired, but the brain actively rages at an endless cycle of unanswerable questions. How many years do I have left? Did I remember to pay the insurance? Do I have cancer? What’s that sound downstairs? Who or what is touching my leg?

For this piece, Suss Müsik sought to represent both forms of insomnia through sound. The piece begins with the insistent tempo of a CR-78 drum machine, which signifies the ticking of a clock, its rhythm punctuated by jabs of piano. A field of electronic fog slowly emerges from within and builds to a quiet roar. With the whine of a saxophone, everything retreats back into the subconscious. The ticking CR-78 returns to close things out.

The piece is titled Chiasmus, named after a grammatical structure in which a phrase is reversed with no repetition in words. Next time you have insomnia, try to list as many of these as you can remember from when you were in school.


#27

The grainy dark: a short granular loop with a woozy swell
The night outside: a long field recorded sample of campfire and crickets, fed through a delay
Sleep games: number counting
Calming memories: a borrowed phrase from a lullaby


#28

Hey y’all, it’s been awhile. Experimenting with some new tools and processes here.

An exploration of GRM Tools Band Pass filters using a field recording featuring a Sandhill crane calling. My home state of Michigan has proposed a hunting season for this magnificent bird, and the thought of that possibly passing sickens me. The mix was originally in 5.1 and I’m not thrilled with the stereo conversion. More for me to learn and play with I guess. While this may not be the most gentle sounds to lull one back to sleep, it’d totally fit for me. Bird sounds always relax me, and these sound like they’re deep in the night.


#29

I created this track on my laptop while vacationing in Vancouver, B.C. Rather than go out searching for audio material, I decided to keep it simple and just use sine tones.
The structure is simple as well: A seven-note pattern, C-D-C-F-E-F-D is played once over the 3-minute length of the piece. Layered over that is the same pattern played twice as fast, repeated once. Over that, the same, twice as fast, repeated twice, and so on for four or five layers. The faster the pattern, the lower the octave, though layers do share octaves.
The “instrument” playing all the tones generates a sine wave with added even harmonics (2nd, 4th, 6th), with a slow envelope for both volume and for the slow vibrato. The volume is also modulated by the LFO, so the tones shimmer.
Because (you might have notices) the repeat count does not compensate for the halving of the length each time, the faster layers finish first, gradually leaving just the slowest at the end.


#30

Here’s mine.
Made and bounced on the OP-1.
Added som Valhalla in Ableton.


#31

here’s my track:

i recently adjusted my meds which resulted in severe insomnia. usually i could only sleep in bursts of 1-3 hours, if i was lucky. this junto got me interested in investigating and interpreting my experience of those nights into a soundscape…

so, the idea of this track was a combination of some kind of desperation felt and being locked in the hypnagogic border between sleep and and being awake. it consists of a loop from the vtol garmonbozia and different samples taken from recordings of the mroztronium grackler. arranged in ableton with some minor tweaks/mixing.


#32

Here’s mine…I tend to listen to very noisy things to fall asleep to, so this is a quiet noisy thing.

I’m an insomniac, and this track is modeled after things I normally listen to to try and sleep. The stylistic requirements are that it 1) has to include some white noise, a la rain or a vacuum cleaner or fan, 2) has to have some kind of general drone that changes pitch and 3) has to somehow have a lot of quiet detail so I don’t get bored.

This collage is essentially three tracks. One is a recording of my back porch at 3am, I recorded this for an art installation in Mexico City this year. The other two things are guitar/feedback solos, one using a pedal called an OWL, that’s the large sound with moving chords. The other is using feedback through a BugBrand AudioWeevil. This track is slowed down 100% so as to keep the notes in the “soothing” range, could maybe even be an octave lower.


#33

This is the last thing I listened to before going to sleep last night. It’s lovely. What software did you use to implement it in?


#34

I am glad you enjoyed it! I used RTcmix (http://rtcmix.org/), which I use for almost all my D.J. projects. I forgot to mention that each 7-note pattern also slowly floats across your hearing from left to right using spacial simulation (also part of RTcmix).


#35

Thanks very much. I don’t think I’ve come across RTcmix before.


#36


//code poetry
j= {[PinkNoise.ar(0.25), SinOsc.ar(330,0,0.05)]} .play;
j.free;


#37

I immediately pulled up SuperCollider to give it a go, change some variables, and combine variations. Thanks!


#38

Wow… so many great entries. Would make a great compilation.


#39

cool sounds
:slight_smile:


#40