I watched a YouTube video, during lockdown, by Mary Spender, the guitarist and singer-songwriter, in which she discussed problems preventing creative people from creating. The discussion resonated with me as someone trying to find a voice in electronic music, without much formal musical training, and caught in an argument, with myself, between creating what I think people want versus whatever ends up coming out the pipe when I turn the handle.
At one point Mary quotes from Elizabeth Gilbert’s Big Magic:
Recognising this reality – that the reaction doesn’t belong to you – is the only sane way to create.
This went a long way for me to decide I should put stuff out there and let the reaction be whatever the reaction will be. I’ve even turned a corner and have stopped apologising for my output being “music (for some definition of music)” and for the first time, this year, started calling myself an electronic musician.
This week’s track was made predominantly with my small modular synth. I built some of the modules during lockdown and have added to it since we were lucky enough to resume a relatively normal life down here in NZ. During lockdown I worked from home and had the modular close by my desk. I very much enjoyed setting up generative patches that played quietly in the background during my working day.
The track is composed of a self-oscillating ladder filter being played by a four-step sequencer then passed through a resonating SEM bandpass filter and finally through a Wasp filter. The SEM and Wasp filters’ frequencies are being modulated separately. The SEM from a bipolar comparator triggered every three beats, driven by a four-step sequencer and a Turing machine. The Wasp is modulated by a slow triangle LFO. During the recording I altered the bipolar comparator’s inputs and manually changed the cutoff frequencies of the SEM and Wasp filters.
After recording a take I added drums and percussion in Ableton and increased the tempo from the original 108bpm to 130bpm.
As always, the Junto stimulates me to push my boundaries and find my voice. Thank you for that. And thank you for whatever reactions you have, or don’t have, for my contributions.