Maybe - being kinder to you than you’re perhaps being to yourself - it would have been possible to stay disciplined if you’d have got the right setup at the time (and maybe this is an out I’m giving myself in advance, but attributing it to you to make myself feel better!)
Ha - this, 100%. If I was as effective at (and dedicated to) researching gear as I am my doing my dayjob I’d have enough money to buy all the gear I research (which might not be a good thing, so…)
My other half dismays when I cycle gear. With the exception of a very small number of pieces (my custom dual tank spring reverb in particular) I view myself as the temporary caretaker of the gear I own, possessing them on an almost loan basis. I tend to get pretty much what I paid for the units when I sell them on and I’ve usually spent at least 6 months working out whether I can get along with them or not. In the past few years I’ve cycled through a variety of keyboard synths, only keeping the MS-20 Mini (which I have a huge amount of affection for and will probably keep indefinitely) but I’ve never had the space to keep them all so it was out of necessity as much as anything else. Recently I’ve been able to move everything into a dedicated room which, although affords me more space than I’ve ever had for my production equipment, has actually had the opposite effect - moving everything into the new, empty space has made me get all Kondo about whether they all “bring me joy” or not!
There’s a lot to be said for this. When my music only existed in the physical world, deadlines were omnipresent - and I was also more productive than I ever have been… although I had less kids and different responsibilities, so maybe the deadlines didn’t actually have anything to do with it! That said, I am going to try to instill some kind of deadline system with my work again to see how that goes.
(I don’t have any comment for this, but I liked it a lot and wanted to quote it).