Hello. I’m not new here. I used to be called Clive Grace or TanaisFox and I made a Monome 512. I miss it dreadfully. I may have to make another one.
A while back I decided I was not a man, but a woman. I had this sneaky feeling since I was 8 and over the years it crept up on me until last year. After all the drama of the house fire had calmed down and I was left with a stable life and a load of tools at my disposal to work out my shit… for once and for all… I saw a doctor who sent me to a psych who sent me to a specialist who asked me lost of questions and at the end of the process I ended up with a positive diagnosis of gender dysphoria…
What this means is… well… not much has changed, the next few years will be a process, a sequence of events of medical and psychological processes: hormones, facial hair removal has already begun, some cosmetic surgery, body changes, some gene therapy too and then in two years time, after boobs and hips and nips and tucks. I get final reassignment surgery.
And its not like this is anything new… Transgender visibility is becoming a thing this decade.
Otherwise not much changes. I am still building stuff, I am finishing some major projects this year and my PhD resumes although I may just take a MA in composition just to ease myself back in and composing starts again after a much needed hiatus. And as I am finding out… women in electroacoustic music are more common that most other genres
Clive became “Claire Fox” by law last week.
So here I am, many of you will not know me as llllll has grown massively in my time away, but some of you here will know me.