@dnealelo, you’re definitely not alone. I don’t (yet) have monome gear or eurorack, while I do use hardware synthesizers everything is older than 1990, most older than 1980… obviously if I were starting again today I would not do this, because of rising costs, but it was more reasonable years ago and still not so bad if you space things out over the years.
I use a keyboard controller (Axiom) for everything but rarely play it like a keyboard, although I do that too sometimes. It’s basically an interface to Max which controls the hardware.
Also I have not transitioned to M4L or Live, as I use Max only for data and it works seamlessly with Logic (virtual midi ports). In the past year I’ve shifted to doing most of the Max stuff as custom externals.
None of this is by design, basically there isn’t any design. Just interest. Just letting things be or following inspiration, leveraging also whatever random skills I picked up along the way. I had some classical training MANY years ago, so I use it, I have experience coding, so I work that in as well.
I’m not really tied to any particular approach, it’s just how things develop. Sure I have interest in modern stuff too, including monome, I’ve also thought of putting together an all-Mutable eurorack setup. The other theoretical obsessions are with micro-gesture and (someday) full-body gesture, I’ve thought sometimes about getting a motion capture system having used them for work in various past lives. But that’s a huge expense and commitment.
The reality is I haven’t exhausted the possibilities of what i have, and I don’t seem to need anything else. It’s always about that “next thing”, I’m trying to bring forth whether an idea or recording or composition. Of course I’m open to making the leap should a need suddenly arise, even tomorrow, anything is possible, but it has to happen of its own accord. It has to follow a certain process. Could be tomorrow or ten years, or possibly never. I hold myself open to all these possibilities.