Exactly this. During the same long period I did make hundreds of unfinished loops and ideas and three self-published albums that I still think are half decent - but the flipside is that I still can’t really play anything to save my life. Now that the interest is not on making songs but playing an instrument, I wish I’d had at least some focus and practise routine on that side as well… Better late than never of course.
Thanks for saying this aloud, it really describes my current pattern of buying stuff I don’t necessarily need, better than I could.
More specifically, it feels I sort of have an urge to look at things I own and use, figure out what’s missing or what isn’t “”“optimal”“”, and fill the empty spots or iterate one by one - not hoarding a lot of things because they seem cool, more like I was preparing for something, or fine-tuning a complete system that would let me do everything I want in the easiest and nicest way I want, in some imaginary sense. When one thing feels satisfying and works / sounds like I want to, I suddenly realize there’s something else that needs attention and money, and it goes on and on slowly but surely.
Familiar adult GAS thoughts: “now that I have a good instrument and good effect of this and this kind and I don’t really need any others right now, I really want to build exactly the right length of custom patch cables for myself - even though there’s no sign of the current ones getting in the way or failing, it would be so tidy and reassuring… Oh, and I really need a really good overspecified pedalboard power supply because reasons and peace of mind”.
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