Red Patience, “Grief Rally”

in august 2022, i performed in the last flash crash. about a year later it’s now out as a record from Hard Return, a UK label for persistent music:

very happy about this recording finding a home on HR alongside some really great talent, some personal favorites being one of our lines moderators @emenel and yan jun (who i saw give a really great text based performance in 2018, which vaguely inspired a portion of my FC set)


there are a few different aspects that led up to this performance which take a little bit to get into. this entire process involved a lot of mixed feelings, weird memories, circuitousness… to explain, i’ve split it up into two parts: the technical and the theoretical. (maybe more precisely: the practical and the personal.)

the technical

everything driven by teletype: just intonation ratios are placed into the pattern banks, alongside separate patterns containing 1) a sequence of the ratios to play 2) a sequence of indices to ‘reset’ the sequence to. the metro drives this sequence to select ratios and periodically move the starting index around deterministically (attempting to copy the effect you get with meta-sequencing Sequins in crow).

eagle eyed viewers may remember an axidraw moving along with the music. the axidraw was plotting the sequence over time, with one axis being the index of the current ratio and the y axis being the index of the ‘reset’ sequence. i wrote a really quick and dirty norns script to take in volts to my Crow’s two inputs and send those over OSC to my laptop connected to the axidraw. (i could have probably learned to write some serial code to do this, but hey don’t push yourself)

there was also a Processing sketch being driven by the same OSC; each note change caused a word on-screen to progress through a very long poem. the poem text was taken in part from an installation piece i did earlier in the year.

the main voice was just friends with a mangrove humming along. i was inspired timbrally by pauline oliveros but obviously this sounds a bit less beautiful… my disting EX was loaded with the JI ratios and played strings alongside. beads was also involved for texture. the feedback occuring halfway through is a fun circuit between another just friends and three sisters – teletype throws some volts at three sisters to change the timbre over time but most of the feedback was me manually moving the knobs around. i think there was also a bass voice and some filtering but i don’t really remember.

obviously part of the requirement of flash crash was live coding, so everything was done in the fly.


the theoretical

zap! deleted. sorry. it was a little too personal. it detailed the repeated echoes of circuity, ephemerality, memory (loss) and grief running through and leading up to this performance, a death of a friend and reconciliation with one’s past. kinda depressing, sorry.


very big thank you to

  • jack from hard return for both putting this out and mastering the performance, dealing with a pretty shitty base recording to start with
  • @tyleretters and the entire flash crash crew for curating such an inspiring series of events
  • the other performers of that night, especially @WilliamHazard , who reached out after my performance with a very fulfilling conversation that in no small part influenced the decision to put this out.
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oh yes, also bandcamp codes, sorry:
t52c-ba7u
7vmy-ugdr
vf8z-j7xd
7ann-k5mc
l7av-6uyw
4578-6q74
4r52-yzpm
cl75-7z7g
ec5b-v6qu
8h7m-ggkp
24wf-uuzn
aphv-evkj
6k9a-hsn5
untr-vdpf
vaz5-gdba
f6tg-uhs7
m3nz-ejc5
faaz-uydr
5f9k-juxd
b532-6pmc
d7va-kfyw
smbg-6m74
srv3-y6pm
k7g4-e7gg
k5u4-35fu
k85j-cu5q
nkr8-cpnt
mym2-wr57
9t85-hdn5
3nzb-vcpf
55tm-gcba
r6z9-uxs7
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Thank you, that final FlashCrash session went to some really special places and I was happy to tune in.

I understand that you’ve been through some difficult times and I appreciate you making this set available, I look forward to hearing your music again.

I used code r6z9-uxs7

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Looking forward to listening to this.
Thanks for sharing a the details of how you came to releasing this, it sounds like you’ve been through a lot. And thanks for the codes, I used 5f9k-juxd.

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thanks so much for letting this one out into the world, @mei. Your flash crash set and our conversation afterwards meant the world to me, truly. They made me feel a lot less alone in the work I’ve been doing. I used 55tm-gcba. I can’t wait to give this a listen

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i appreciate this gift : )

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I’m really wanting to make the code work but for some insane reason Bandcamp is mangling it regardless of whether I copy and paste it or type it in on my iPhone…

Must try iPad or Mac I guess…

iPad worked for this code: ec5b-v6qu

Thanks!

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Thanks for this!!! Sounds very intriguing.

I used faaz-uydr

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Used code 3nzb-vcpf.

Thoughts of friends and versions of myself that are no longer present and also constantly informing me.

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very nice sounds and i found the ideas and background highly resonant - thank you for sharing them (even if only ephemerally)

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thanks all for being very kind. i deleted the oversharing bit because it was a little too personal, but thank you if you were able to read it before it disappeared. this forum and community have meant a lot to me over the past few years!



Anne Carson

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did not even clock the autobiography of red reference, lovely

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